CHEM! last paper of the week.
thank God for God!
what yihui told me study like came out and yeah! i studied smart, and not just hard. was able to write stuff la. and not like, not know anything. so yeh! praise God! =D
now i pray i won't get complacent with physics. ahh.
another night of chionging.
something's wrong with me these days.
i dream alot, and i sleep alot.
and this shld be the period when i sleep the least and study the most... :/
whats happening to my bodyyy? :/
and aft waking up late, i don't really feel like going out to study alr. but then ive got to settle food and my house' clean swept and cleared with food and all... :x
and the hot water kettle is still, sitting at info counter at nexus. grahh. :/
so i can't cook mee.
rahhwwr.
its quite funny how it can be fun to do housework!
hah. :D
salt and light!
i really hope they'd be able to know Christ one day.
rippppppppppppppppp
ahh, seeing all the 101 blog entries about camp, detailed journalling of happenings, i feel kinda compelled to blog about it as well. lest i forget such a precious moment.
but my books are compelling me more to read them.
.............
I shall blog aft tests.
if not, red scrawls of red ink will haunt me. :/
T_T
i want to bite myself.
till my head swells and say i learn.
saturday's sermon really hit me home.
insecurities, which alot of people struggle with. including me. and the answer is simply just that, we are the child of God, paid with blood, loved and lavished by the God of most High. We are the child of the Most High God.
and i want to get it there in my <3.
and when God's throne in my heart is displaced by other things of the world, suddenly the world seem to tremble and topple. nothing that is led by God lasts long, or lasts well. i pray that no matter how many times i run off the altar, i pray that i'll crawl back, for im a living sacrifice.
work hard, work hard.
i have trouble focusing and trying to understand econs, some how.
studying has been so unfruitful lately. other than that day of elasticity madness.
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i have to grow up... im still like a child.
camp was great, it was a blast.
and the company there was extremely enjoyable. with all the people that you know have served with you for some time, and those who will continue to serve with you in this new ministry, feeling scared together, laughing, crying, working hard, and doing all sorts of things together.
i have to take time to consolidate my learnings... now that ive said it, i better do it. hah.
really so, so glad with the people who could eventually come to camp! weekeong, liting, edward! whoo! haha. it was so great to spend time together in this new group. and with the others too. and guozhang came as well! :D
i remember that i was kinda lost not knowing who to fellowship with first, as i had quite a few people in mind. and my phone being irritating limited me to stay around in the hall, cause i don't know where some of the people are and turned to mix with the general people who were at the hall...
anw, i thank God for all the leaders, who are literally challenging machines as the rest can pretty much fellowship around.
whooo. im really excited, and i really wanna see a vibrant aj community man.
18 ajcians. i'm a Christian, ask me why.
i have tons of work to be completed but i aint gna care about it for a little while now. hah
was just blog hopping, something which i always did in the past. and its quite a good habit if done moderately. it helps one to gain strength, to be inspired from your fellow brother and sisters in Christ. with such personal life testimonies, like what brother David once said, we strengthen each other knowingly and defeat the devil. we crush him. and i lost this habit, and i kinda sense change... somehow.
then was reading this 2 blogs when i realised something lacking in me, which i kinda once had. its this simplicity and humilty. its this spirit that doesnt want to look good in front of people or try to hard to gain attention or have the intention of "ministering to people". its a simple spirit which causes one to give his or her best, and looks soley to oneself. it doesnt try to look around, trying to outshine others, cause it simply wants to shine for God, for Him.
no wonder i find myself serving differently already.
i wonder if its the experiences that i had, that cause me to form certain extremely subtle, but unhealthy attitudes and behaviours.
where's that simple yearning and desire for God again? that would drive one to fast and all, to receive something from God.
won't you bring me closer to that past again.
and now i understand in a new light, what it means to live for the audience of One. to please God, and not man.
don't be emo. thats not what desiring for God is about. but simply hunger and yearn.
i hope this marks something in my heart from now on... don't forget to stay pure and simple, eh?
You only get these benefits if you’re willing to share your weakness. If you hold back the weaknesses, faults, and pain in your life, it’s of no benefit to those you could possibly minister to. we're called to serve, not to look good.
my first caregroup! :D
studying at macs now. but im so sleepy and tired. ://
great and extremely fun caregroup ystd.
hoho, this shall be the benchmark and lets hope that the group will really grow from glory to glory yeh? :)
okay, am feeling less sleepy now. shall surf the net for lil' while more to wake myself up before im back to hit the books.
bye!
just watched my first ever nc16 movie with my cousin, and with the help of my cousin. namely residents' evil. i feel so n00b. lol.
anw.
kinda creepy. :/
what to do, im quite timid one.
ok, but when you mute it and just watch the actions, they look quite dumb actually. haha. just that the sounds like just freak you out. :/
like how music makes you emo and muted videos of couples doing emo stuff look dumb to you.
ok. lol. thats the end of the post.
was seeing how my little cousins fighting over the computer. so scary. there's one who's like at 6 and he can play lf2 properly. :/
that period what was i doing?
watching tv. throwing my bag at home after school and running down to play at the playground. LOL.
i only started using the computer proper at pri 3 plus. when james intro-ed things like neopets and kidscentral chatline to me. LOL.
but anw, then i was seeing how the 3rd brother(6) taking after the 1st brother(13) in the behaviour, which isnt so good la. saying things like "you go and die la" to the mother and stuff. :/
then being very shocked that such impurity have hijacked their mind at such tender age... i stepped in to solve the situation.
then you see them making small ammendments. hah. the skills that ive learnt came in handy, abit.
anw.
i need to be more humble. when you are humble, people gravitate towards you, according to the "Purpose-Driven Life". but yet at the same time when you are humble, you are in the risk of being hurt. so being humble kinda equates to putting yourself at the lion's mouth. hence no one wants or really likes to be humble. and i mean truly humble. and true humility touches people's hearts and makes them respond to you. like Jesus' humilty, at the Last Supper.
and then there's the part about depending on God. if I dont depend on God in prayer, faith and conviction... then i'd be no different from a non-believer aint i? cause there's no God in the picture. I dno, but i expect and hope God to move greatly. I dont care lah. I must leave this whole procession with at least 1 little cousin invited and brought to church. garh.
anw for the first time, i think that my cousin is cute and i think they'll grow to be quite good-looking in the future. both the guy and the girl. hah.
randomness and incoherentness again, as my posts always are.
feel like typing smth emo. so i shall. ahha.
alot of thoughts have be running through my mind for the past two days actually.
i shant type down this particular thought... it can be quite provoking.
thank God so much for Kar and Pete that they came down along to visit me. hah. its nice to have some company.
however i feel abit not at ease.
anw today we had our last caregroup. the last cg i'd lead in the anderson guys group. we met up in the morning and turns out that the rest were all late. then in the end, met with jeff and went around the whole place to look for a nice place to eat, for Seoul Garden where we originally planned to go at AMK there was closed. so in the end, we set upon jack's place. hah. hey people, when you are free or when you are interested, go check out jack's place's students' meal or their normal set lunches. it is very fulling, and appealing. :) then after than weilong joined us after we ordered.
then anw, had a great time savouring the food. shared some stuff.
the God chosen people, grow and make God proud ok? :)
anw.
so irritated about the lack of things to blog. cause normally when im not at the comp, my mind would be flooded with things that i want to blog down. then when i get down to the keyboard, nothing much ever comes out.
im excited and i cant wait for the new structure. new growth!
oh, suddenly remembered what i wna blog about. some reflections over the year leading nea3.
think if that i were to completely write it down it'd be quite a long thing. but im quite glad that at the very least, there's still people who love God left in this group.
shall bug pete one day to evaluate the whole year that we've been through together. its been a journey. haha. (i dont want to use the word ride.)
alrights. i think i shall look around the net and get back to econs.
