i have tons of work to be completed but i aint gna care about it for a little while now. hah
was just blog hopping, something which i always did in the past. and its quite a good habit if done moderately. it helps one to gain strength, to be inspired from your fellow brother and sisters in Christ. with such personal life testimonies, like what brother David once said, we strengthen each other knowingly and defeat the devil. we crush him. and i lost this habit, and i kinda sense change... somehow.
then was reading this 2 blogs when i realised something lacking in me, which i kinda once had. its this simplicity and humilty. its this spirit that doesnt want to look good in front of people or try to hard to gain attention or have the intention of "ministering to people". its a simple spirit which causes one to give his or her best, and looks soley to oneself. it doesnt try to look around, trying to outshine others, cause it simply wants to shine for God, for Him.
no wonder i find myself serving differently already.
i wonder if its the experiences that i had, that cause me to form certain extremely subtle, but unhealthy attitudes and behaviours.
where's that simple yearning and desire for God again? that would drive one to fast and all, to receive something from God.
won't you bring me closer to that past again.
and now i understand in a new light, what it means to live for the audience of One. to please God, and not man.
don't be emo. thats not what desiring for God is about. but simply hunger and yearn.
i hope this marks something in my heart from now on... don't forget to stay pure and simple, eh?
