was thinking back of my first service i ever attended.
where i made that prayer that fateful day during Christmas.
i dont know about you guys, but sometimes after you go out and have a crap lot of fun with yours friends and are on the way back home... dont you just feel, super sianned. sometimes even more sian than before you went out.
and sometimes you just feel so lost and... like you're just dangling, doing things purposelessly even though you know you ought to study, do well, get decent/gd grades and move on in life, embracing its colours and all. but you still feel, hollow. somehow, la.
and then, after that
fateful day, it stopped.
after that Christmas service, surprisingly there was an indescribable sense of accomplishment.
He filled that God-shaped vacum in my heart, as i heard them say.
and i was no longer empty. :)
and joy came in, along with a direction, and a subtle, but evidently strong sense of comfort and security. i know i'll turn out right somehow, cause someone who cares is out there looking, and looking.
and looking.
and i wonder, how many more ppl just need to know and
accept the simple truth.
He loves, and He cares for you.ah! why so emo. LOL.
but hey, its true.
i just wonder, why didnt i just make that decision earlier, or what.
